Tuesday, July 27, 2010

It is 3 a.m.

And I am still awake.  It has been one of those nights.  Maybe I am just over tired.  Or in need of chocolate.  I don't know.  I don't often talk about my oldest son.  It seems like I have to talk about so many personal things in regards to him with perfect strangers so much that I choose not to share here.  Sometimes it is good.  Sometimes it isn't.  Anywho....I am kept awake tonight thinking about pure joy.  How often we see it on our kids faces.  How often (if we're lucky) we feel it ourselves.

I dug this picture out of a drawer a few weeks ago.  It is my favorite picture.  I thought it had been lost.  I believe I took it just days before he was diagnosed.  It was right before Easter that year (obviously, from the bunny ears).  Last year, last month or even a few hours ago I couldn't have told you why it was my favorite picture.  But as I was laying in bed, it hit me.  This is the only picture I have of him with a look of joy on his face.  Not a smirk or a grin.  True joy.  And I can't for the life of me remember the last time I saw it on his face.  I am just thankful that at one time he felt it.
I hope you all take the time today to recognize your own moments of joy.

5 comments:

Gene Black said...

That is an adorable picture.

Just remember that sometimes our faces don't show the joy that is in our hearts. He may feel joy at times that (to you) look like something else entirely.

Miss 376 said...

I will always remember the real deep belly chuckle from DS2 when my mum tickled him. It was one of the rare treasured moments they had together. It's lovely to have these photos to hold those memories

Needled Mom said...

That does look like pure joy. I am so glad that you found the picture and can hold onto that memory.

CaraQuilts said...

HUGS

What a great pic!

Cecily said...

Thanks for a beautiful photo and very good advice.